Plans For The Year

For the first time in a long time i went to a Mary Kay meeting and we talked about goals and staying positive and how your attitude can determine your life and I kept thinking of ways to make this year as amazing as last year and i have so many things i wanna do and as soon as i get excited about it all i remember why last year was so great...because i knew i couldnt do all that this year! Lol so i need to take it down a few notches on the trip planning which is hard because i reeeeally love going new places, but i thought id come up with a few goals and things id like to do this year So here goes :

1).....a few trips. LOL! But not like last year so i think i can plan for a couple without overdoing it! I wanna do the spring holiday with Allie for sure. Were so excited for that and although we were excited for Bermuda and island shenanigans i think staying in the U.S. is a good idea, not only would a road trip seeing new places and things be really fun but at this point im not sure leaving the country is smart at all. Setting up oxygen and medicine transfer and everything would be tough and If something happened there id be in trouble so road trip it is!! (def have out of country plans though for a later date). I also wanna do some smaller ones like Nashville and i think we were talking about California too.
2) I wanna get my fev1 up past 35%. It seems almost impossible lately but i think i can do it. If i focus really hard on getting my weight up and keeping it up, and really put work into exercising and making sure i dont miss one single little pill or treatment i think i can do it. I wanna put transplant off as long as possible because to be honest it terrifies me and i dont want it. Im really motivated to do this and im gonna work my ass off to get the results i want. Making serious changes to reach this goal!
3) Stop letting negative people and situations influence my life. Im happy overall but there are a few things that really get me down and I finally feel like im ready to clean house and get rid of the negative relationships i have with some people. Im ready to let go of all the things that im hanging on to even though i know they're no good for me. I know that ultimately itll make me happier and so its worth the sadness of letting those things and people go and moving on with my life. I have so much good in my life i need to focus on all that from here on out. :)

Maybe ill make some more but for now thats it, those are my goals, a few things i want to accomplish some in the next few months some throughout the year, very happy with this list and im determined to stick with it!!

Appointment/Health Update!

Its been a little bit but i hope everyone new year has started off on the right foot so far! Just to update everyone on how im doing I had a doctors appointment today at 3 and it didnt go as well as i hoped but i wasnt admitted so I definitely not complaining. I lost 2 pounds (down to 96 now) and my oxygen levels seem to be staying right around 94 now. My FEV1 was the same 28% as my last appointment and although its disappointing that its not higher im glad it hasnt dropped. The last 2 days ive been coughing up blood as well but its under a couple tablespoons a day so its not a huge concern right now the doctor just said to call him back if it doesnt stop or it gets worse and hell set up an admission right away. Also ive had a bit of a cold for over a month now but since that seems to be clearing up too im not worried :) all in all i think it went okay but it was a pretty disappointing feeling to have worked so hard like i did and still have lost weight and to have my lung function stay the same...i thought for sure id made a difference! This just means i have to work even harder before my next appointment. My weight goal is 100 lbs (i wont be healthy enough for transplant till i can gain and maintain my weight so is really important) and i wanna get my FEV1 up past 30%, its gonna be really difficult and take a lot of time and work to get there but i have an amazing support system full of people who help motivate me and keep me on track and im so thankful for all of them! Heres hoping guys!
xx

But On A Happier Note...

Well this weekend was amazing :) Friday Allie and i met a bunch of friends at Tobys in Rosemont and had an great time, we were gonna just stay a few hours have a drink or two and head home early but ended up leaving at 4 when they closed hahaha worth it though i had a great time! Then Saturday we wanted to go to wrigleyville but got lost on the way there and then finally found it and parked and had to go back to the suburbs cause al realized she left her passport in the driveway hahaha we got to the bars at like 1230-1am but it was still fun! Lots of weird people seemed to be out though. Im back to doing the whole standing by the bar half dancing half trying to move as little as possible thing lol, and i miss dancing terribly but ill get back there! Sunday i went to the Blackhawks game with Joey and it was a great game they won 6-2 against the panthers and we were only 10 rows away from the glass so i was very happy about that! Breathing is getting tough again and last night i barely slept at all because of it im hoping im just in a bit of a rough patch right now but who knows, im pretty nervous for my upcoming pft tests in January im praying my lung function is higher than 28%.

All in all though things are good, no actually their great :) and i couldnt be happier with my life right now.