Hospital Stays

When i start really feeling bad i know the best thing for me is to call my doctor and set up an admission, but i still fight it. Every single time! Not because i dont want the pain of all the blood draws, ivs, picc lines, and everything else they do. Not because i hate that someone comes in my room every 5 mins and they usually end up severely pissing me off before they leave, and not because being in my own bed in my own apartment is sooooo much better than being anywhere else....Its because i hate feeling cut off and isolated from my normal life. I hate staring at my phone waiting for someone to call me or text me or hoping a friend comes on facebook. I hate hoping that maybe the next time the door opens itll be a friend not a nurse whos here to poke me with yet another needle :(. Although there are a few people who try to be there for a little bit when they can (aka Sarah, Allie, and Michelle) but i do feel forgotten in there. I appreciate even a quick phone call, its soooooo boring in there and I understand that people without CF have lives that dont include as much free time as ours do and i try to remember that but i still cant stand feeling like unincluded (is that a word? it should be...). I wish us cfers could be around each other because i know alot of us have this same outlook, and if i could id come visit each and every one of my CF friends and id bring them real home cooked food that only contains one type one type of animal per meat item and was not made in a lab and coffee thats not made from pine cones and bits of card board!!! The last admission i had was reeeally hard on me cause i barely saw or talked to anyone...im really hoping this one is different! Feel free to email me and leave me some love!

Heres to the few people i can always count on!!